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Baby Joren is Here

Baby Joren Eugene Grimstad (baby #6) arrived on 6/27 @ 5:49pm, he weighed in at 11lbs, 14oz and was 23 inches long a big boy.  Momma and baby are doing great.

Perfection

We are not perfect, but we are called to be Christ-like.

This is the conundrum of being Christian:
We are all sinners, Christ forgives us and calls us to do better, and loves us no matter what.  However, we cannot settle for where we are at.  So we must acknowledge our sinfulness accept that we fall but not give into staying fallen.  It is a battle between extremes: IF we strive for perfection on our own we will fail and dispair, if we settle for ourselves being fallen and not strive for more then we have given up.  We are called to a middle road of accepting our frailties and faults and Having God fill us with his perfection, for we are not enough, and cannot expect to be enough on our own.  But how do we find the middle road of accepting both our faults and God's grace.

Latest new teams painted AND ELFBALL DEMO

Elfball Demo @ area51 gaming store in grapevine texas June 4 @ 11:00am to 3:00pm

Here are my newly painted teams:

These first guys are my Impact! Razorbacks, they were a gift from some good friends ;),  I like the makeup of the team, but they were suprizingly tough to paint.  Got them knocked out in 3 nights, pretty quick and dirty painting.  I am happy with the results.

These Guys below are my Gnolls, the first team I bought for Elfball and one of my first purchases from Impact! miniatures ever.  Really happy to finally have them painted, what is even cooler though is that my wife painted them for me (I just put the static grass on the bases and numberd them).  Can't wait to play with this team.  Tangible love and getting to show how cool my wife is while playing Elfball, can't beat that!

Couple of other painted teams

Here are two more of my painted teams.  The lizardman team is the first I ever painted completely and the Night elves are a bit of a rush job but fun anyway.

My Painted Teams

Past few months I have started paintin more, here are a couple of the teams I have "finished" so far.

Above: The Al'Stars, my human team in the DFW Blood bowl league, these guys are Impact! Desert Dogs and a Reaper "Naseer, Genie".

These are my Elfball Gnomes(Also Impact!), probably my favorite team as far as models and stuff.  I play well with them, just wish they had a little more speed...

And in honor of Impact and just because I like em, here is a shot of my new hats :)

Failure

This week I feel like a failure in all that I do.  I am not good enough, I cannot do it right.  I make decisions that are incorrect, I handle situations poorly and life is a challenge that I am not up to.  The stress of failure makes it worse.  It seems almost as if it is a cycle.  But one cannot give in for failure is to stop trying.

At school this week I blew an evaluation of the effectiveness of a grant at school because I choose to do a required benchmark in lieu of an engaging lesson despite an email telling me to do otherwise.  I thought I was making a decision based on what the ad building wanted.  I also had a test that I had to give to get to the magical 3 quota per district policy.  I choose incorrectly and received a bad evaluation that let my school and principal down.  I felt awful for I had prepared 5 of my six classes lessons for this, but they came in my unprepared one and I didn't realize I could opt out despite an email that I missed.  Very frustrating, then I got a call that same day that felt like a reprimand for it, that I probably deserved but I was not equipped to handle yet.  New like that comes better in an email or face to face, I feel powerless on the phone to things like that and it reminded me of when I sold cars and was reprimanded (repeated) by my previous boss.  I then choose to exacerbate the situation by feeling slighted and needing to be heard, and was once again shown the errors I had made, may God open my hard head to the lessons he has for me.

Then I have fallen down on trying to keep up with the house.  It is a mess and we had been doing better about cleaning, the mess overwhelms and then because I have been lazy about some of my grading I am behind on that and tomorrow is the deadline so I need to get to work on grading but I want to clean and I need to vent about my failures to move forward.

I also am reminded lately of past failures in my marriage, we need to get out new budget in order and that reminds me of my poor money handling and deceptiveness about it.  I want to protect my wife from all evils, but it so hard when you realize that you are the one who has done those evils.  She is also having a hard time lately, lots of stress,a messy house, a husband who "got in trouble" at work.  I feel like I am failing in so many regards lately.

But I remind myself, I need to move forward in Christ.  I cannot get all better at once, I need to move incrementally step by step.  Tonight...Catch up on grading be ready for the six weeks that started today.  Tomorrow clean...Bunny cage...House...and make great prep for my lessons this week in school.  I must just remind myself I am human, I make mistakes, I fall, But I ask God to help and I move forward.  I need to be the Husband God calls me to be, the father He calls me to be, the Example to others He calls me to be, the Teacher he calls me to be.  Focus on him and all else will fall in line.

I have fallen but Christ is there to take my hand and help me up. "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have Mercy on me, a sinner."